Some happiness within the sadness.

This depressing stuff is really weighing me down, and it's not helping that I have PMS. However, out of the darkness shone a light and made me a bit happy again. It was Leeke World wigs. Yeah, yeah, pathetic - I know, but I mean a girl's gotta find happiness somehow. Anyway, Bikou's wigs came today and BOTH of them are perfect. Bikou originally had turquoise hair, but for some reason I decided to go the "eve cream" route. Funny enough, when my GO was ordering I was told the eve cream color was sold out in the particular wig style I chose. So I thought, well might as well go with the "pale turquoise". I'm so glad I did. It works! I'm not going to show any pictures yet, because I want to get her face up on! I will probably do that while I'm waiting for news on my mom. Yeah my mom's having surgery tomorrow. She better do great.

So basically this is where I'm at;

School,
Depressed
Mom's Surgery
Depressed
BJD hobby
Depressed

That goddamn depression is preventing me from enjoying life!! Why does this happen to human beings!?

Did I mention FFXI? Yeah, searching for happiness.
Do I have any readers? Anyone ever lose a best friend in any way? Feel alone?

I'm a lamer.


p.s. I forgot to mention, I'm trying to get the money together to put an AE Miriam on layaway to catch the Oct. 14th pre-order deadline, but it doesn't seem like I'm gonna make it...

Hello again, something important.

Things have slowed down in the happy department, as cheesy as that sounds, but I'm serious. Depressing things are happening lately and I really want to keep focus on what's most important, my hobbies, my music, my family, me. So I'm sorry if at any time I slip up and lose that focus. I really hope I don't. I really hope things do not get worse.

I will be able to faceup Bikou when the new order of sealer comes, but I'm a bit scared to do it. I know it may seem strange but it's there. I need to head off to school now. My friend Mick is going to pick me up afterwards and go get lunch. It was his birthday yesterday! Yay! I really hope my birthday isn't a sad one. This year was going by so well, unbelievably well, I knew it wouldn't last.

Yeah, I know, Debbie Downer.