Oh my November pie!

I can't believe it's the 11th already. Not fair! I've been already pretending I am 25 for the past 6 months like a dummy. I'm still 24 damn you!

Japanese class was hard today. Te-form, basically just verbs in general, hurt my brain. This Saturday we're going on a class trip to eat at a Japanese resutoran and do karaoke. Yeah I have the coolest sensei ever! There's a doll meet in NYC on the same day, and I'm going to be blocks away from it, but can't attend. (. _ . ) Here's to December.

Speaking of BJDs I reached my quota for this secret project I'm a part of. It's right before the deadline too. I'm so happy!

Even more randomness, I'm playing FFXI like a mad woman! Yeah I did just buy FFXIV and I don't play it. I'm sorry but nothing can beat FFXI! Aion almost did, but nope. FFXI is my twue love!

I have to stop going days without blogging, because my entries end up being about 800 different things.
Heading to Mick's house. 801.

Feeling better.

As Halloween approaches I'm so happy to say that I'm feeling better in every way, health-wise and mood-wise. I lost a little bit of focus but I hope to get back on track. I have seriously let to many things fall to the wayside. I'm glad that things are not really that bad, and I can sit back and realize that.

So the good news that follows is in many parts.
First off, last night Mick took me to go to the mall to give it one more hard try to find my Shosanna Dreyfus dress. You know what, I found something! It was pretty awesome, because I was starting to doubt that I'd even be able to get anything. It's a really nice dress that was only $38! I can wear it for other fancy occasions too! It's not the exact style, and I do have to wear a ghetto bolero (made from another shirt) over it, but it's something! Something good at that! To top it all off my pillbox hat arrived today. I wasn't expecting that either! The only thing I have to worry about now is doing my hair. ( ^ - ^)

Second! Tomorrow I'm heading into the city to do a photo shoot with Gulshan, and her dolly lovlies I faceup'd, Rohit (IH Ryan) and Chandana(IH Tania). I'm excited to get that finished. Then after that I'm headed to meet with Jennie and friends to go karaoke-ing. I'm hoping to remember to try to get some birdcage veil material for my costume while I'm in the city. Crowning glory!

Lastly, I love Bikou, and I'm on my 34th business day mark for Momochuu~'s order!! ( ^ O ^ )/
I really hope I get a shipping notice soooon. I cannot wait. I keep forgetting I bought little shoes and undies for her. Haha, that's all she has to wear at the moment. ( 0 ^-^)

Took some pictures of Bikou, but you can't see them. Here she is sitting on my shelf though. Gah, she's so perfect, well besides the fact that she has some extra anatomy....

Bikou's head is alive! Lol.

Some happiness within the sadness.

This depressing stuff is really weighing me down, and it's not helping that I have PMS. However, out of the darkness shone a light and made me a bit happy again. It was Leeke World wigs. Yeah, yeah, pathetic - I know, but I mean a girl's gotta find happiness somehow. Anyway, Bikou's wigs came today and BOTH of them are perfect. Bikou originally had turquoise hair, but for some reason I decided to go the "eve cream" route. Funny enough, when my GO was ordering I was told the eve cream color was sold out in the particular wig style I chose. So I thought, well might as well go with the "pale turquoise". I'm so glad I did. It works! I'm not going to show any pictures yet, because I want to get her face up on! I will probably do that while I'm waiting for news on my mom. Yeah my mom's having surgery tomorrow. She better do great.

So basically this is where I'm at;

School,
Depressed
Mom's Surgery
Depressed
BJD hobby
Depressed

That goddamn depression is preventing me from enjoying life!! Why does this happen to human beings!?

Did I mention FFXI? Yeah, searching for happiness.
Do I have any readers? Anyone ever lose a best friend in any way? Feel alone?

I'm a lamer.


p.s. I forgot to mention, I'm trying to get the money together to put an AE Miriam on layaway to catch the Oct. 14th pre-order deadline, but it doesn't seem like I'm gonna make it...

City, city, city.

My weekend is packed, and that's a wonderful thing. Can you say free Comic Con/NYAF weekend passes?!? Yes. So I'm going tomorrow with my friend Mick, and then on Sunday with my friend Jennie. Today I walked all 3 of my dogs (2 separate trips) around the park. I'm going to be so beat! ( - _ -)

Other random things; 1. Bikou's wigs are on the way and I can't wait, gonna face her up! 2. Going to Hershey Park next week, hope it's fun. 3. I lost 7 pounds. 4. I'm not liking FFXIV and going to stick with FFXI.....I know.. 5. Even though there is crappy stuff happening in my life, I'm still grateful that it's something I can separate myself from if needed.

Well, I'm gonna keep my boy.

I'm keeping it, I'm keeping the Jerome boy body. I put it down to $375 for a limited time (October 1st), and then I just felt it wasn't worth it anymore. It's not selling, I'm not Feeling selling it for that low, no one's interested. Get the hint Megan and keep the piece you worked so hard for! Yes. So, Bikou will be on a boy body for now, but she is ALL WOMAN! Just have to start saving up again! ( ^ - ^) Sorry Hitomi, I don't see us getting Evey anytime soon, but hey don't worry we're getting you a body to share with Bikou! She didn't like that.

I just noticed it's sad that I don't have any full complete dolls to do photostories with, so I result to random typed conversations. ( 0 - _-) Well, I'm off to go look at some NINE9 Style clothes I can get for Bikou's manly side! LOL!

Impatience.

Ok so it's almost October already, which is insane, and I'm not getting any takers for the boy body from Crobidoll. So here is my new plan; start saving up to purchase Spirit girl body, leave boy body up for sale, cry. I was really contemplating just taking him off the marketplace and having Bikou be a boy while waiting to save up, but I don't know. I want the body to stay brand new and untouched. I just really want Bikou done! ( TT O TT )

In awesome news, sensei brought a friend into class today that didn't speak English! ( O o O ) I was really nervous and when I was told to ask her a question my mental capacity plummeted. At first I said "Denwa bango desu ka?" which means "It's a phone number?" I also said "bango" weird supposedly because everyone laughed and corrected me. Lol. When I finally said it correctly, "denwa-bango wa nan-ban desu ka", she laid it on me and I forgot every number she said as she was saying it. I nodded my head, and sensei asked me what she said, I had no idea I said. Reading it I would know exactly what she said. I get so nervous that my brain just doesn't know what to do with itself. It was quite funny though. Then we got an awesome, awesome surprise! Sensei and her tomodachi held a tea ceremony and koto playing session! Again, I was like ( O o O ). I got to play Sakura on a simple Koto. The whole experience of everything made me so happy! ( ^ _ ^ ) It was fun when we went to Nakamura-san to partake and a tea ceremony. Like I said she doesn't speak English, so she was giving instructions and speaking in only Japanese. Good thing I'm good at reading body language. ( 0^-^) When she handed out sweets I asked "Mochi desu ka?" It was. I ate it and said "Umai!" and that made her laugh. When we left class I bowed and said "Dozou yoroshiku onegaishimasu" to her. I felt so nerdy doing it, but glad I did. She responded back and said arigatou. My stomach burned, it was so exciting and nerve-wracking at the same time! I can't wait to go to Japan!

Traditional full Koto:



One like what we played:

Tea Ceremony:

I need to stop being impulsive! But maybe this will work!

Well I just bought these new beauties. They are Ever Purple, they are for Bikou, and they are expensive. (0 -o-)
I really believe they fit the character way better than a pair of flat brown eyes. I really wanted dimension and warmth and hopefully these bring it! If not I will cry, again, expensive! We will just have to wait and see! I was not even planning on getting urethane eyes at all. The reason I was against buying urethane is because they take so long to be made. When I was searching high and low for nice eyes for Bikou I came across these in the marketplace I was like !OH!.  Buying these also takes the stress out of deciding what company I should buy her wig from. A lot of companies will have great eyes, but lame wigs, and visa versa. I didn't want to order overseas from two businesses. So I'm happy, and low on funds. I can't even buy the wig now, and not to mention Momochuu's eyes, let alone decide which to get.

This entry is kind of mundane. Haha.

I know you're lonely in there!

I really want to spend time with my new doll but I can't. ( ; - ;) I don't want to touch the body so that it can remain new and mark free for the sale, but it's not fair! I can't put a face up on or anything, I have commissions and need to wait for sealer to arrive. I also need to find a better wig and better eyes. Bikou I know you want out but you must wait. I never felt so happy about a doll before! I guess because I worked hard to get her. Part of me just wants to say, "WHATEVER, IT'S A BOY!", but she's not a boy! She needs her new body. I feel sort of guilty about it too. The company made this body for me and I have a certificate and everything. I do feel a little bad about selling it. Oh brother.

For sale guys! http://www.denofangels.com/forums/showthread.php?396936-CROBIDOLL-R-Line-boy-body-Version-2-(Normal-Skin)-420

Oh, went to Mitsuwa today, have homework to do, and art class tomorrow~! My Algebra teacher wants us to go to math workshops as something that is part of our grade. Sucks that they are horribly scheduled!! I will have to get up early on Wednesdays to attend them. I will just attend the required 10 and then they can suck my butt.

Connection.

I sat staring at her trying to find the girl I knew was in the Jerome sculpt. I decided to try on this other wig I had and just stared at her. I finally found Bikou.

BIKOU'S HOME!

I can not believe she arrived today! That was incredibly fast! I was so surprised I decided to wait to open it and go for a walk in the park. Lol, I'm serious.
Now to be completely honest, and this happens to me a lot, I'm confused.
The Jerome is really strange in person without make up on. I think I just have to get a face up on her and she will be Bikou, because right now I'm having trouble seeing it. I wanted this doll for a long time so I'm going to fight for it this time! It didn't help that the wig I bought intended for her was too small and the eyes I have are not cutting it. Not to mention the lack of a female body. I need to get to work and I have!!

Wig Sale
Crobi Boy body Sale
Box Opening

I also have to finish 3 commissions and do some reading/writing for school on Monday. Oh boy!

GUYZ! GUYZ! GUYZ!

I just checked my order status for my order from Crobidoll and it's SHIPPED!! Bikou is on her way home!! I'm so excited I do not know what to do with myself! Gah! So much information today, too much to process!!

I have GOT TO get a job, a work study job. I learned today that going to Momoyama U will be tougher than expected and I really need a lot of HELP! Most problematic? Money, of course. The State does not allow you to use their grant in order to pay for abroad studying. Way to put the kibosh on my hopes and dreams NJ! Your supposed to be the cool state! Anyway, yeah so I would only have about $2400 towards a $4500+ tuition. On top of that I would need to pay for 2-way airfare, room & board, and pocket money. The man in charge of the department at my school said I would need roughly $7000. Now that's not too bad considering it's Japan, but it's a sad number. It's still a lot of money...

Way to kill the mood of the Crobidoll excitement right? It's just that now I have to think about getting a job and what if that effects my Financial Aid. Not to mention needing to file for taxes...I want to continue learning Japanese!!! I could alway apply for a grant/scholarship! What to do, what to do. I could always just go to Japan and live as a hobo until they kick me out? That's Plan Z.

BIKOU! I'm kind of considering selling/trading the R-line body directly for a Volks SD13 girl body, and skipping the purchase of the Asleep Eidolon Miriam (save for another time)...but I don't know yet either. Now if I could find an AE Miriam on a Volks SD13 body in the DoA Marketplace, what a stroke of luck that would be!!

美子う

Make your own Dream

Movies and newses.

I upped the ante on my Netflix so I could feed my romance fix faster. Yeah recently I had a random urge to watch squishy love films. Random, that's me.

Looks like I will be redoing a face up which I am mostly happy about and determined. Sometimes a sculpt just gives you a hard time. The thing I dislike most is when lips do not have much definition. It's then easy for them to turn out looking like a duck bill or a sour face. ( > x O) So I'm dedicated and ready to fix this boy up RIGHT!
Rohava's boys were completed yesterday and are on their way home today. Ryu's are really handsome, crush.

Now about my dolls. I have a huge array of stories and possible characters collecting in my mind. It's a bit frustrating when you just want all of them in doll form now! It's impossible unless you're wealthy. I think because of this two characters are morphing into one! Bikou and Prise are becoming one. I am leaning more towards Prise though, since the story I created about her is more elaborate, and I also already have Prise's counterpart, Amalgam. The look however resembles Bikou's. So I'm saving to order a Crobidoll Jerome who I think can be Prise...but he maybe Bikou....or both...or neither. I seriously don't know. However I drew this up last night, and it surprised me. It's Bikou and it's Prise. What the hell!

 

Frustration.

Looks like I won't be going camping, even though I really want to. I have decided it'd be best to stay home and make sure my dogs are taken care of. My parents are having a party here at home so the dogs will be ignored. My dog Jack has a pain somewhere that's making him whine and I don't know what wrong with him. I would feel extremely anxious the entire time I was out camping. I hate not being able to decide things and I get very upset and frustrated. However, I have finally come to a conclusion and feel much better.
I'll just hide away in my safe haven I call my room, with my best buds (dogs) and celebrate Independence Day. Haha. I'll be sure to light the giant sparklers I bought (and perhaps some bottle rockets...muwaha), take pictures, and take full advantage of Netflix. Oh, by the way, I didn't get to take pictures at the beach (forgot camera), but I did have fun. :)

There is another plus to staying home, I get to continue faceup commissions! (^_^).

Another random fact, FFXIV release dates are up!! Going to buy, going to buy!! I can't wait. One last thing, I'm understanding Japanese a whole lot more. Double excited.

Triple excited because look at this! It has to be Bikou! Or maybe someone new? I don't know I just love him/her!

Shake Your Golden Mane

I am better and feeling fine. I hope that is the last time I am sick for a really long time. I have an overload of commissions and I'm loving it. That's right! Well the Christmas season is coming so it's much needed work!! Many people ordered 3 heads at one time of mulitiple bodies or blushing parts. I'm so full of new ideas and dolls I'm overjoyed! I can't wait to get them all done and be as perfect as I can make them. I get to do a Pukisha!! SOOM Skoll's little wolfy parts!! (>w<_) The list goes on, including to full DoD dolls. Let's get to work!!!

Oh, and Bikou is an Asleep Eidolon Blueberry and I am very sure of this. Let's hope it sticks.

Paradise is out there.

Well, I'm a big fan of Wolf's Rain and I finally finished watching it last month. It's so good, so smart, so sad. Ugh soooo sad (ToT )/. Anyway, I'm talking about it again because I finally decided to upload the drawing of Bikou, my own fan fic character from the series. I want her in doll form so bad but haven't been able to find a mold that fits. Which reminds me that I still have to fancy up that Souldoll LilyC. to sell! My poor Bikou. As I watched more of the series I saw the episode where they come across a native tribe that takes care of all animals and especially wolves. I thought it was a perfect scenario for Bikou's story. Gosh I'm just thinking about all the characters now and getting sad. Haha. Ok, ok. Here is the drawing and I hope she becomes a reality, as best as she can be, real soon!

Bikou

Bikou, or at least I thought, came. Souldoll Lily.C is now on sale at the boards. I'm a bit frustrated.

Bikou where are you?